Late Night Thoughts XII
Is it better
To love
To hard
To heavy
Or is it better
To love
Not at all
Posting mostly thoughts
And liking mostly pretty things
Aren’t you glad I let you in?
Into these broken bones
Into this broken skin
Aren’t you glad I let you roam?
In these broken halls
That felt just like home
It is almost calming
To realize
That if you died
No one would miss you
And once you do
You will find
How easy it is
To let go
I’m trying to convince myself that I don’t need you to survive, but every time I do, I realize there’s no way I can possibly exist without you.
I kinda thought I was special to you
Because of the way you looked at me
Because of the way you talked to me
Because of the way you laughed with me
Because of the way you smiled at me
And because of the way you would sit next to me, in perfect silence, without either of us wanting to escape.
But then I saw you around him
And around her
And around him
And around her again
And I realized
I was only one of so many.
I miss you
Every minute
Of every day
I miss the way
We laughed together
I miss the way
We cried together
I miss the way
We sang together
I miss the way
We stayed together
With every cell
Of my body
I miss you
Surrounded by people
I have never felt
More alone
Because you’re not
Here
With me
You
Next to me
Our hands intertwined
Our hearts beating in unison
God, what I would give to make that dream reality.